Dreaming Of Holding A Baby In My Arms
A few months ago, I woke up from a dream where I held a baby in my arms. I was wearing a white dress, and the baby was pink with yellow hair. She cooed at me lovingly as we sat together in an oversized rocking chair on the porch of our old Victorian home. It was such a beautiful moment that it haunted me for days afterward.
It’s a thought that haunts me.
My brain won’t stop thinking about it.
It’s a nightmare that won’t leave me alone.
It’s a thought that haunts me.
It’s a thought that won’t let me sleep. It won’t let me go, and it won’t let me be happy or move on with my life in any way, shape or form – because I can never have it! And the fact that I can never have this baby is what makes it so painful to think about, even when all I want is to be held by one right now…
It’s a thought that tears me up inside.
It’s a thought that haunts me; it’s a thought that tears me up inside. It’s a thought that holds me back from letting go of the past, from forming any new relationships, because I don’t want to become like my mom and have another child with someone who isn’t committed to being part of their life.
But here’s the thing: I’m 30 years old, and I want kids now more than ever! However, because of my fears about having kids with someone who may not stick around for long (or at all), I haven’t been able to move on from my past relationship(s).
It’s a nightmare that won’t leave me alone. It’s a thought that haunts me. It’s a thought that won’t let me sleep, and it won’t let me go on with my life in any way, shape or form – because I can never have this baby! And the fact that I can never have this baby is what makes it so painful to think about even when all I want is to be held by one right now…
It’s a thought that holds me back from letting go of the past, from forming any new relationships.
It’s a thought that holds me back from letting go of the past, from forming any new relationships. It’s a thought that haunts me. It’s a thought that tears me up inside.
For me, it’s a baby in my arms—a tiny human being I once held and fed and loved, who I then had to give away. For others, it may be something else: children who have grown up and moved away; relationships that ended on bad terms; jobs they once had but are no longer in; places they used to live or visit before moving on; friends who let them down or passed away too soon…
It’s a thought that won’t stop, even if I want it to. It’s like an itch I can never scratch. It’s like a pain in my heart that won’t go away no matter what I do or say. It’s a nightmare that haunts me every night when I lay down to sleep, and then again when I wake up in the morning – still thinking about it!
I can’t seem to let it go
It’s a thought that haunts me. It’s a thought that tears me up inside. It’s a thought that holds me back from letting go of the past, from forming any new relationships.
I can’t seem to let it go…
I can’t seem to let go of the thought that I’m not good enough.
I’ve tried so hard to move on from this thought, but it haunts me at night and causes me to wake up in a cold sweat. It’s a thought that won’t let me sleep, and it won’t let me go on with my life in any way, shape or form – because I can never have this baby! And the fact that I can never have this baby is what makes it so painful to think about even when all I want is to be held by one right now..Whether it’s a person or a place, a feeling of loss is inevitable. And yet, the more I think about it, the more I realize that these losses are only one part of my story—and not even an important one at thatI can’t seem to let go of the thought that I’m not good enough…..
I hope you’ve found this blog post to be helpful. I know how hard it can be to let go of the past, but I also know that it’s possible if you’re willing to put in the time and effort. If you’d like more information about this topic, please don’t hesitate to contact me at my email address below.